Come on already

You know, the healing and day to day living could be so much more bearable if we were able to speak to each other. This crap where he treats me like crap doesnt help. Back in july we were getting along. Sure i was still grieving the fact that my husband lied and deceived me, exposed me to stds, told me he wanted a divorce because he "wasn't in love" anymore but continued to share my bed and continued to have relations with me up to the exact moment i confronted him on his adultary. When i asked him about her he first said he knew noone by that name, then that someone from a bar he went to had a girl he barely knew with that name, and when i asked why a girl he barely knew was texting that she missed and loved him, he finally admitted it. Then the whore starts texting and emailing me to tell me what a great boyfriend he is and how he took her to tennessee with him and still i never scream at him or do anything crazy. And we continued to get along. At that time he said we could sell the boat to pay down our loan, that i could have the lawn equipment because hed have his dad buy more, and he wasn't being as hurtful as he is now. Then, overnight, he started being cruel. Wants everything of value to himself, wont speak to me unless its to call me names, allows that whore to continue to contact me(what is her insecurity and obsession with me anyway? You can have him, i don't want his lying cheating, immoral, alcoholic ass back. I am not trying to get him back. Take him! Enjoy the guy who was doing us both and lying about your existance!) The only thing i want from him now is for him to be a devoted loving father to our girls and civil and cordial to me. I mean we have known each other for 17 years and i have seen the good in him, its just been awhile, but i am sure its still there somewhere. Its going to be a difficult haul for him to put our girls before himself and his lifestyle, but i have faith that eventually he'll get there. I just pray its sooner than later. In a perfect world he and i could speak to each other and get along and i also pray that that day will someday come. Then healing can continue in place of this animosity that is growing.