Feeling blue

It's amazing to me how my emotions work. For the last week I have felt great, happy even. But here I am feeling down today. I am missing my husband, my friend. I keep wondering how we got to this point where he treats me as if I had done something to hurt him when he was the deceiver. The days are the worst when our girls are with him and I am not busy at work. It gives my mind and heart time to grieve and I hate it. Maybe one day when this nightmare of a divorce is over we can be civil again. One day I know my heart will heal. For now I will keep praying for a stronger back, thicker skin, and a healing heart. I know I will get through this sadness eventually.