Sadness

Just feeling sad again. It sucks. I havent been sleeping well again. I cant wait for the day the sadness goes away. My girls will be going away for the night with their dad and that makes me really sad. I am used to seeing them every morning, even on their dads days. I also sneak a peek on them every night when they are sleeping. That means im not going to see them for 24 hours and i am sad about it. I am still sad about losing my husband and wish it was all just a terribly bad dream. I have been having really bad dreams again. I just really want the sadness to stop.