How My Week is Going

Things have been going good for me this week. I started back to work and it's nice to see my friends and give my mind something to think about other than my ending marriage. Sure, I'm still grieving the loss of my husband, but keeping me busy is good. It's getting easier to get through this because I am seeing each day how different he really has become. He likes to say I'm "nuts" as he put it, but I'm not sure how he can believe his new "friend" isn't a totally insane, crazy whore. She emailed me yesterday if you can believe it. She's so ridiculous. If they were really so happy in this wonderful relationship of theirs, then tell me this: Why do they both check my Myspace, my blogger and other accounts daily? Why does he run reports on me at work? Why do they spend so much time and energy investigating me, harassing me, and all? Why is she emailing me? If they were to look toward the future, and I mean more than the next time they fornicate while her children are home (what great role models for the children!), how do they really think this is going to work? They've committed a huge sin over and over again with no care about how it's against God's word and how it affects their children, they harass me daily with all this time they spend checking on me and emailing me, he's so hung over daily that he's not giving any quality parenting time to our children, he's destroying his body and soul with his drinking, chewing, smoking, unprotected fornicating, fornicating in general, lack of sleep and I could go on and on. How do they really think that this is an acceptable relationship to expose my children to someday? Our girls should have parents that can communicate with each other. Our girls deserve better than how he's handling this divorce. I feel he's trying to destroy me emotionally and financially. Is that how he wants our girls to live? With nothing left of their mother? Well, I can tell you this. He may destroy me financially, but he'll never destroy me emotionally. I'm am too strong and have a great support system. I have God in my life. My children will also come out in the end better off. Even if he does destroy me financially, I'll bounce back. I've got a great job so I'll be fine in the long run. The big question is, will he? I still am concerned for his spiritual, physical and mental well-being. I mean he used to be a good guy. He's just really lost his way. I still pray for him for the sake of my children. If he doesn't come to his senses and realize the downward spiral he's on, and change his course, our children are going to have to pay for it. So I pray, that one day, he'll care for himself again spiritually, physically and mentally. Our girls deserve that.


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