Rambling

What makes people decide adultary is ok? How does someone go from being a christian that promises he would never cheat on his wife to someone that cheats many times and then says he has done nothing wrong and has no reason to feel guilty? And then to top it off, what makes him believe he should stick his wife and children with huge lawyer bills and not want to help pay down joint debt as well as try to keep any assets worth anything to himself? What makes a woman that claims to have been cheated on by her own husband turn into a total whore that knowingly sleeps with a married man? What makes her carry on such a relationship while she is raising children herself? And then to top it off not only is she sleeping with a married man well before he files for divorce, takes a vacation with him before he files for divorce, continues to sleep with him even though hes still sleeping with his wife and then after his wife finds out about her the whore emails and text messages the wife to brag on what a great boyfriend he is and about their secretive vacation. What makes people behave this way? Sure it sucks for me because i really really loved my husband and would have done absolutely anything at all for him and i always believed him when he said if was faithful and loved me. Now i know that everyone else was right when they warned me, but i cant undo the past. Ill never regret giving my everything to our marriage because i married him for better or worse til death. I lived my vows and i was a very good wife. I am also a very good mother and my poor girls are going to feel more pain in the long run because of their father and his whore. As their mother i am doing my job to raise them to be moral and christian. I am teaching them not to lie and deceive. I am teaching them to take care of themselves and to be kind and love others. But their father and his whore live quite the opposite of that. He has even stooped so low as to lie about me to his family so they dont talk to me anymore. He has been cruel and unkind to me many times recently, he dumps our children off on his family and then our girls are always asking why daddy doesnt want to see them and spend time with them. Dont get me wrong, the girls enjoy the time with their aunt and grandma and i am glad they get time together, but come on. Before he was being forced to have "his days" he avoided his family all the time. I would have to make him visit. Now he uses them to keep our girls busy. But hey, maybe thats better for our girls anyway. This way they will have less exposure to him and his immoral lifestyle. Also the days they spend with his family they cry less and they dont complain so much about how mean he is to them. It will be sad for my girls when he starts spending more time with that whores kids than them but ill cross that bridge when we get to it. In the meantime i am going to keep taking care me my girls and making sure they know they are loved.