The Last Couple of Days

Well, the last couple of days have been fine. Brian has been cordial and polite again. He had a big fit at me on Sunday night, but since then he's been cordial and polite. On our anniversary (yesterday) he didn't go out to his girlfriend's after work (as far as I could tell) because he was home by 11:00. It did make me feel better to know that. I went to bed early so there wasn't a lot of interaction.

Today after physical therapy I went grocery shopping while Brian was still home. Our sale sign came in the mail and I put that up. It made me really sad to do that. Brianna was playing really nicely with her cousin that comes over twice a week. All of a sudden she runs into the house crying and completely unconsolable. She was yelling about not knowing we were moving so soon, the divorce isn't done, etc. I had to explain that it takes a while to sell the house and we have to try to sell it before the divorce is done etc. She then helped me clean up a couple rooms and take pictures to add to our online ad. Then she went to clean the basement up and came up crying that Kyle and Ella were messing it up. She was again just unconsolable. After she calmed down she tried to play a board game with Kyle and then when he didn't follow a rule she broke down again. She kept saying "I don't know why I can't stop crying". Then she locked herself in her room with her shade down and played her DVD player for a couple hours. I did call a counselor and they now have to run all the insurance and they'll call me back in a couple days to schedule an appointment. She's been so upset lately and unable to put it into words, so I really hope counseling can get her to talk about it. It was just breaking my heart to see her so sad today.

Now, she's out of her room and holding it together a bit. She called her dad to chat for a minute and she seems to feel better for now.

I'm glad Brian's being nicer to me. But, I still think he's planning to make the divorce as expensive as possible. My lawyers had to sopoena his documents. I'm not sure how much that's costing me. I really hope once a request for division of assets is put together that he'll agree quickly to it. I don't want to go to court. I don't want this to be so ugly. I really think if we both try, it can be amicable. I keep holding on to that, and I keep trying my best to be as nice as I can. Although he feels that I'm up to something by being nice. I'm not. I just want to be nice to each other, and I want this divorce done quickly and fairly. These kids deserve to have parents that get along.