Vacation Worries

The biggest thing I'm worried about for this vacation is that he wanted to make sure I was taking our car and not our truck because he wants to take the boat out this week. I asked him not to take "HER" on the boat and he said he couldn't promise me that. It is OUR boat. Yes, he put the title in his name and he's the only one that hooks it up and drives it, but I'm the one that researched boat ads for it, found it, convinced him to get it and wrote the check for it out of OUR joint checking account, using OUR money for it. So, it's OUR boat. I really don't want "HER" on it until he pays me 1/2 the value of the boat and then it's truyly HIS boat. It's really hard letting go of everything and it does bother me that he's not taking this vacation with us, and it bothers me that he can't make a simple promise like not taking "HER" on OUR boat. He won't even take me and the girls on it anymore because he can't stand being around me that long. It just hurts.

Gradually though I am getting through this time of hell. I only woke up from nightmares about 4 times last night. I had nightmares about my girls being taken from me, I had dreams and nightmares about him and I and about him and her and even her and I. I just wish my mind would let me sleep at night. Since this whole nightmare began I haven't been able to sleep more than 3 hours a night.


Well, me and the girls are heading to Pennsylvania Sunday evening. We'll be back on Friday or Saturday. I'm really hoping for a good trip. I won't be updating the blogs until we get back. Hopefully I'll have some fun stuff to post for all of you!

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Have a great week everyone!